9.08.2013

Sunday Supplication + Update

If you have liked the Raised From the Water facebook page, then you already know that my phone call on Tuesday did not go as hoped. I was basically shut down completely and our only option at this point is to wait. For two months. This will be the longest two months of my life. This wait will be longer and harder than any of the waiting I did while trying to conceive. The pain in my heart is greater than the pain I felt every time I stared at a negative pregnancy test. 

Waiting is hard, folks...waiting on the unknown is even harder! People regularly ask me, "How are you?", "How was your week?", "How are things with the adoption?" Typically I smile and respond with something like, "I'm trusting in His plan." or "God does not put us in circumstances he cannot overcome!" but what I really want to say is, "Crummy!" The truth is that it's hard. It hurts. I'm angry and achy and CRY. ALL. THE. TIME! This does not mean that I'm hopeless or throwing in the towel. This does not mean that I no longer have faith or believe that God has a plan. He is still leading me, my faith is still strong, my conviction even stronger and I'm not kicking Jesus to the curb. I do not feel like God has forsaken me, or that I'm alone. I am not discouraged, I am encouraged. 

Wait. What? Encouraged? YES! I am encouraged to fight. To seek Him above all else. I am encouraged to wait. ((deep breath)) Being an orphan is so much harder than what I'm going through. And Jesus went through a lot worse so that I could be adopted by the Father...I think I can handle waiting. I am choosing to wait, but that does not mean that it's easy.

 

Paul and Silas bound in jail
Got no money for to go their bail
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Paul and Silas thought they were lost
The dungeon shook and the chains fell off
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Freedom's name is mighty sweet
And one day soon we are gonna meet
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

I got my hand on the gospel plow
Won't take nothing for my journey now
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

The wait is slow, and we've so far to go
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

The wait is slow, and we've so far to go
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Only chain a man can stand
Is that chain of hand on hand
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

Ain't no man on earth control
The weight of glory on a human soul.
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on.

The wait is slow, and we've so far to go
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on

The wait is slow, and we've so far to go
Keep your eyes on the prize 

When you see a man walk free,
It makes you dream of jubilee.

When you see a child walk free,
It makes you dream of jubilee.

When you see a family free,
It makes you dream of jubilee.

Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on.



Sunday Supplication:
Please pray that I learn to wait well. Please continue to pray for everyone involved in our adoption, specifically our agencies (American & Bulgarian), our coordinator, those taking care of our child, and for our child. Please pray for Ryan and I, that we are able to guard our hearts but continue our journey with great passion and selflessness despite any wars the devil may wage against us. 


Thank you!


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2 comments:

  1. Psalm 130:5-6
    I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.

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  2. I feel led to tell you what I have learned through my life. When it feels the darkest, when you don't think you have an ounce left to endure, then, and usually only then, is victory right.....around....the....corner! Hang on! And always remember that God is in the boat with you. Love you, Angie. Linda Norden

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